wohooo...!!!

Valentine's Day was awesome!!! i like it so much.. tho it was not so romantic.. but funny n the actors.. wow! handsome.. esp Taylor Lautner.. they look great together but sadly they're not together anymore.. huhu.. and argh my neck.. we sat at the very front row.. so have to see upwards.. aiyoo.. it's very painful.. as long as we manage to watch VD, so we're satisfied.. :D

and i bought 1 stiletto and 1 flat.. i'll be bald after this.. huhu.. but, i didnt even think again after i bought those shoes as i really want those.. as i feel quite regret that i bought the flat before.. huhu.. as i told myself im done with shopping since im quite "sengkek' now.. but i just cant.. i'll still be buying stuff.. i just cant resist.. like before i still can control myself tho i got money to buy.. somehow now, i cant anymore.. idk y.. maybe influence by the surroundings.. ppl that shop with me buying stuff like myself.. maybe thats y i can stop myself from buying too.. huhu.. my list of things to buy is very long.. there's lots of things i want to buy. just the matter of time and money.. hahaxx.. be patient..

btw, im happy now with my life.. he doesnt contact me anymore thats a good thing i guess.. tho sometimes i wonder y.. but at least, i can move on.. and wouldnt think of this kind of thing anymore. there's other guy out there that meant for me.. let time goes by till i meet the one.. hehe.. maybe im too busy that i have no time to think of that kind of thing anymore.. my schedule is always pack.. from morning till midnight.. then went to bed.. and doing the same thing all over again the next day. i dont even have time to pamper myself.. see how busy i am.. i dont even have time to text nab too.. hurmm.. i wish time move faster until april. then slow again during the holidays.. hehe.. I WISH!.. but that's just a wish that wouldn't come true.. i usually get headache lately.. idk why and what makes me got headache everyday.. maybe the weather is too hot, or i dont have enuf sleep, or im too tired.. or im hungry.. im at the period that i dont want to eat.. xde selera.. and my eyes berdenyut if i got headache.. y ah??

i want to go back home immediately.. cant wait tho it's in still 2 months time.. i just need to relax and not think of a single study stuff or activities.. just sleep.. sleep.. and relax.. and not doing anything..

xoxo
qiqilala

bad bad sad sad.. :((

i want that stiletto! so badly.. somehow there's no more size 36.. :( no wonder it discounted until 30%.. i've been looking for that kind of stiletto since ever.. when i found it there's no more stock.. dah sikda rezeki.. huhu.. n at least i dont spend on it again today.. if not i have to buy new one later again for the dinner.. heheh.. i cant see nice shoes or heels or wedges.. i always want to buy it.. weird.. but that's what a normal girl always do tho.. hahaha.. cant resist nice, beautiful, elegant stuff.. i still have a very long list of things to buy..! hahaha.. but have to control myself from buying because it's still miscellaneous stuff tho.. unless i'm that filthy rich that i have loads of money to spend on and dont have to think of other things.. hahaha.. i wish i can be one, one day.. so i have to start saving from now aite.. n work hard to earn that.. :D

xoxo
qiqilala

LOGAN LERMAN.. :P

went to watch PERCY JACKSON AND THE LIGHTNING THIEF! that movie was great! i would rank 4/5.. hehehehe.. PERCY is so handsome.. i mean in that movie n the way he act.. wow.. he amazed me.. haha.. i was melted when i first saw him.. oooouuuu.... n luke too.. he's cute.. umm typical westerners.. they are mostly cute and good looking.. :P hey percy is Logan Lerman.. i just knew it.. hahaha.. lmbt cita.. he looks like a goodie2 boy.. he's soooo cute!. aaawww..
xoxo
qiqilala

buhsan!!!!

what a boring day! got nothing to do n sitting in front mr lappy since 1pm.. hurmm.. it's feels like im a lifeless person.. while other ppl enjoying their days with loved ones and me sitting alone here.. STUDY! where the hell does my mood to study goes..?? i was so excited about the holidays that i can study again.. but when the hols starts i become a lazy bum bum.. huhu.. today i had wasted half of the day sleeping while the other half online tho idk what am i doing online with no website to visit and all.. haha.. i wanna go somewhere and do something interesting with someone.. lets go watch movie.. hehe.. wanna watch valentines day! and percy! and many more.. who wanna join me?? haha..

xoxo
qiqilala

:P

today was great... hehe.. i really love today.. hehehe... berada d awangan sudah! hahaha... tho only for a while.. lepak2.. n walk around tnpa arah tuju.. still fun.. we should hang out again yeah! hehehe.. sory to russ sik jd kuar ngan ko.. nvm on friday keyh.. hehehe.. where the hell does my revision day goes.. haha.. go out to eat.. then hang out.. huhu.. it's break tho.. so im not in the mood to study yet.. before bukan main berkobar2 mok blaja.. what has happen to me?? huhu...

i have that strong feelings again towards * hahah..

even my guy friend told me to move on.. hurm.. what should i do?? he seems really disappointed towards what i said last nite tho.. i can feel it.. is this how u feel when u hurt someone's feelings? really guilty tho u know it's actually not ur fault? :( i hate to hurt others.. but i have to in order to be happy aite? sometimes we need to be selfish but not all the time okay.. huhu.. maybe i should give him one last chance.. if things doesn't work between us this time then thats it.. clearly we're not meant to be together.. idk y but when i fall for someone, i'll be head over heels towards them.. and really hard to remove that feelings.. hurm.. what kind of person am i categorized in.. huhu..

had fun talking to faten last nite.. it feels like we were both face to face and talk girls talk like what we usually did before.. really miss her.. :( really understand my situation and always be there for me.. ily babe.. BFFFFFFFF okay..! heee~.. :D

SPENDTHRIFT! why am i so spendthrift..?? spending money like water flows down the hill.. huhu.. i need someone to consult me on this.. REALLY IN NEED OF ONE! someone that can control my expenses.. n keep reminding me of what had i spent on.. who would that be?? but luckily i'd save some before this.. hehe.. he used to be one.. but now? hurm.. i'm trying hard tho not to spend so much.. eee.. i cant control myself.. i just like buying stuff esp clothes and accessories.. :) there's lots of thing that i haven't buy.. the one im really in need.. BUT! huhu.. u can guess what.. hahaha.. mumy help me in this.. control my money n scold me whenever i buy miscellaneous. huhu.. staying here cause me become more spendthrift.. dahla cost of living mmg high.. mok gyk gya.. adoii.. how to live like this.. xthn ngan godaan.. SALE here.. SALE there.. aiyooo! but mun dah xda lak pandey la control.. huhu.. control myself from buying things esp clothes.. huhu..

holiday!

last saturday was fun.. the thing that wasn't fun was the expenses.. hahahaha.. msh itok gyk aiee... hahahah.. finally get to hang out with eka n nab.. tho only the 3 of us.. but still we had fun together.. we talk, walk n laugh n not to forget camwhoring.. huu.. lmk sik kdk tok eyh.. hehehehe... BEST!.. i LOIKE!! but sadly it is just for a while.. sik lmk.. then blt.. the ice creams was awesome! mok agyk.. haha.. somehow the extremely great day continues on sunday when we went to GENTING! *wootwoot* tho dtg akhe n ramey lalu org still had fun laughing around like crazy ppl.. tetak nga org ajak.. hahah. naet pirate ship pun blh tetak.. org tkt.. kami bergelak ketawa dgn riangnya... wakakaka... yg sik best sik sempat g snow world.. :( maybe some other time la ho.. heheh.. dah blt ya.. eran juak nga org ctok eyh.. dah tiket madah kol 8 or 9.. ekot la.. tok sik.. mok juak berebut naet bus.. dahya dah dpt nok standing pun sama juak mok berebut juak.. adoiyai!.. huhu.. eran juak.. dah la adoh makk.. baunya ashem lalu jak.. thn ajak la.. huhu.. sampe mabok bah... luckily i didn't vomit inside the bus.. if not nab la yg ssh.. hehehe... reached home.. bath n trus tdo.. hahaxx.. then woke up arnd 12 gyk ya.. best naa!.. hahahah... ya bok kelelahan.. yesterday n today didn't do anything at all.. just relax n sleep.. (again) hahah.. tomorrow have to start studying ya babe.. test coming up next week.. n lots of things to catch up.. remember that i have to score for this sem yeah.. go qila!.. :P

OMG! i wanted to stop pulling n pushing.. please show me where does this relationship goes.. please.. i really want to know.. :( i'm tired n sick of this.. but somehow i just cant let go of u.. idk y.. i am always wanna move on.. but cant.. keep holding me back and said nice things to me.. i want u really.. n i need u.. but u? how bout u? i want to know ur true feelings tho u'd said to me many times.. u also dont even know where does this gonna lead... please.. u said u dont mind if i move on but i can see thru ur face what u actually feel.. from the first time i told u bout this.. idk what to do.. really let go or what.?? n how??

uuuuuuu....

nab's here ody.. yeayy... cant wait for tomorrow.. gonna have fun and shop till i drop.. hahahah.. this is the time to enjoy.. and let everything out from my mind.. wohoo.. by monday hv to be back to UM and start studying.. *wootwoot* there's lots to catct up tho.. LOTSLOTSLOTS!! huhu.. so stay focus..

he keeps holding me back.. what am i suppose to do? my plan doesnt work at all since he ask me out.. oh gosh..! he keeps playing with words and promises..! but i dont even trust some of what he said.. serik!.. tho dah serik but still holding him back... i just cant easily let go of him.. why? why? why? hurmm.. i must be strong in order to let go off him FOR REAL this time.. i dont want to be like this anymore.. idk what's our status.. please let me go darling.. dont hold me back again.. im tired of this game.. pleaseeee...